Saiga's Notes

Applied the “glad game” to my hard feelings about my wife spending life reading fanfics. So why can I be glad? - I earn enough for my spouse to live the life of an old days’ aristocratic dame. - My darling feels safe behind my back. - She ploughs mountains of stuff to sniff the rare sparks of really talented authors and prompt them to keep going. Her hobby is very intellectual and she’s in the thick of real, alive, raw literature. 

When you embark on a mental practice to replace the old negative beliefs and behavioral patterns with new positive ones, anxiety, doubts and fear rush in as tsunami, forcing you to abandon the practice. Does it ring any bell? Know this from personal experience, just like many other improvement seekers. Just yesterday, I have nearly put aside visualization of some useful daily habits needed to improve my productivity as a professional writer. From the first glance, that resistance of a psyche is a weird joke of nature; irrational obstacle for changes meant to benefit us. But it's a fact. So all we can do is explore it, allow and find a way to overcome. In this relation, I love this place in Bible, John 11:25: "Even if he dies, will live". Bible is a cute book. When taking it from the theological perspective, things just don't come together. However, when perceiving it as a metaphorical psychological guide, lose ends meet. In relation to the subject, resurrection is a g...